Believe me, you don't want Hannibal Lecter inside your head.- The Silence of the Lambs.
Anthony Hopkins played both Lecter and Lewis, in "Silence of the Lambs" and "Shadowlands" respectively. He was brilliant in both... I still hear Hopkins's voice whenever I read Lewis' work. However I hear a "Lecter" inside my head a lot... the voice telling me how much I suck. This voice is bent on my destruction, telling me how much everyone would be better off without me. It is contemptuous of me, dismissive.
Watch this speech of Lecter's to Clarice Starling...
That's what I hear inside. A lot. Not those exact words of course, but the tone, dripping with contempt. This voice is grinding away at me and is probably the reason why I hate myself so much.
I need to kick that evil bastard out.
Lewis has always been the person from history that I would like most to hang out with. Just... hang out and talk. I've been trying recently to hear his voice in my head rather than Lecter's